PART 1: Freshman Year
b)There was this guy in my class, Devante, always got along with him. One day we got into this fight in class over a discussion of if taking matters into your own hands, enacting real justice or letting the police keep him in jail. I told them about a story of witnessing my father beat my mother and they all shut up. I was never looked at in the same way in AC. Guess they thought I was a little too fucked up compared to them.
c) The same friend, Devante, told me one day after I had got into a fight with some stupid ass in my class. He told me that if you know things aren’t true, then you shouldn’t get mad over it. I remember it so well because its something that stuck with me. My patience was terrible in freshman year, he helped me calm it down to what it is today. Back in the day, if I had Tomer in my class that year, I might’ve killed him.
d) I would’ve never got back with my ex that year… That bitch caused way too much drama for any sane person to deal with…
f) Fuck all the bullshit
PART 2: Sophomore Year
b) That I actually kinda knew the school now and knew hella more people. The fact that in all of my classes I knew at least one person. It was also a bad time for me basically that whole year, bad interactions, bad decisions, bad family. The biggest difference for me was that going to school was fun because it got me away from home.
c) The biggest part of my sophomore year was when my mother had told me she had cancer, then I had to go take an english final. During the rest of that year I stopped coming to school due to depression and having to take care of my mom. One random day I decided to come back to school and was talking with my friend Sarah. It was funny because she actually seemed like she might’ve cared, until my other friend from the same class told me she was talking shit about me the very next day. This year made me remember why I don’t trust people.
d) I remember learning how much you matter to the people around you, even though you don’t realize it until its too late.
e) During that year I had started tapping back into writing. During that year I wrote a short story that I still have to this day. I still consider it one of my best writings ever, but never let anyone ever see it because I found it too personal. This story is what I based my poem Children on.
g) Try to look past the darkness, there’s light out there somewhere
PART 3: Junior Year
b) This was when my senioritus kicked in. It was hard enough getting to school as it was, but since I was new to AHA and really only knew like 2 people it was hard to get to know everyone else and be accepted into the AHA community.
c) I think when my brother finally came out that year and graduating from UCLA, it was crazy because in that exact same week his boyfriend beat him up and we had to deal with that issue through the whole year. That was probably the worst thing about last year.
d) The biggest surprise was actually opening up to people that year, because I’d never done that before except for like to my closest friends, and even that was a rarity. I guess it was more weird to me because after I opened up to people they treated me different, nicer. It was a big suprize.
e) I learned that you can’t give up on everyone just because a select few decide to live as assholes, doesn’t mean that everyone is. That when you have the patience to help people, and that true friends will always stick with you, even if it is a bad decision.
f) For deciding to actually try poetry out, and writing my best poem Children. I wrote that poem while I was starting to lose my hope in people and how the world was behind the veil. That poem made me realize that you really can do great things when provided with motivation and the right mood.
h) My motto was Live Free last year, it was what kept me going really. I still hated school and half of my teachers, but I would just listen to my music, and get on with my life, trying to through the day without getting pissed off or skipping. Even though one or the other would usually happen anyway, keeping that thought in my head made things more bareible.
PART 4: Senior Year
b) The best thing about this year was that I got to be with all the people I liked and still had some freedom in the long run, which hadn’t happened before because I had fucked up all the years before.. But I think being able to really be myself this year was the best thing to me.
c) Think before you act because I know how you don’t give a fuck about anything, and you should. Not everything is set in stone dude, you can change something if you put your mind to it, you just gotta keep your faith man, it’s what pushes you forward. Remember that little nigga
d) The most major news to me was finding out that one of my bestfriends had died this year during christmas. I hadn’t been around her too much this year so it was really sad to me because i never got to say goodbye, it made me realise how unexpected everything really is, why you have to enjoy life as it is.
e) Senior Skip Day by Mac Miller was my song this entire year, it will always remind me of all the fun times this year, all the friendships I made, the people I’ve grown close to. I think the saddest thing about this song is that I always wanted to do a AHA senior skip day and chill with everyone, but nobody ever really planned it out because not everybody would agree on a single day.
f) I think that everything I learned this year will help me in the future, personally I learned that I can overcome anything, academically I learned I could actually do good in school if I was interested in the subject, artistically I learned that I am a great artist even though before I didn’t believe I was artistic at all because I couldn’t draw, all I could do was write. Professionally I learned how to deal with responsibility and how to professional when a situation comes up and how to deal with it.
g) I’m proud of being able to deal with life, because it seems as if I can never catch a break. I really did like being able to deal with all the family drama that constantly come up and still have the patience to call my family a family. I’m proud with keeping my composure and not going crazy all the times I wanted to.
i) Enjoy your life will be my motto for the rest of my life, because I’ve lived at the bottom and I’ve lived life like it was horrible, but it didn’t make me any more happy. So I decided to say fuck it and enjoy all of the little things that went right, and ignore all the other things that went wrong, because if you’re not enjoying your life, you truly aren’t living anymore.